bored... thinking...

argh... bored!!! i'm bored to tears at work... all alone in the office now while i'm typing away like this.

sigh.. actually got lots of things going in my mind. thinking of the past, my goals and my future. wandering what would my life be if i'm really back with her? or if i was just a normal friend to her? what would all that be? why did i bring this up?

it was because i met her on monday and tuesday. monday was for a short meet up and dinner. tuesday was almost the whole day with her. we were almost discussing about the past and what ifs. sometimes, i wonder what does she really wants. the feeling is like so close but yet so far.

last week i started to feel a bit of regret of waiting and my heart started to sway. during that time, it's very confusing. somehow i still love her but somehow.. somehow i'm just feeling that way.

regretting something for the rest of my life is the worst experience in life. just still feeling lost at the moment. maybe i'm just too tired already. doing too many morning shifts and waking up at 4am in the morning is not helping my cause.

on the brighter note, i cut my hair already. to my friends whom complained that my hair is too untidy and mopped head. i've cut it already. coming back from holiday, didn't really recharged my energy instead it just used up instantly. maybe the holiday was a short one and that's why i'm feeling a bit drained again.

i'm planning to go to Australia next year. with or without my bros if they haven't decide the place to relax. sorry bros. i hoped that we can settle our next destination as soon as we hit the new year.